This poem is taken from Stand 233, 20(1) March - May 2022.
I HAVE FELT WHAT DOCTOR GIDEON
FELT EVERY RING OF ME AND I
HAVE FELT IT AGAIN WHEN I HAD
BALLS SOME OF THEM IN HERE
CUT THEMSELVES WHEN I WAS
SMALL I SLEPT IN THE BATH COLD
TILES STAINED FLOOR EMPTY
SHAMPOOS ALWAYS SPAT OUT HIS
BITTER WHITE IT WAS GIDEON THE
WHOLE TIME BLACK HANDLED
CHAIN PHALLIC TAPS KNITTED
PENIS I THREW A PLANE AT ANNIE
THE PLANE SAID
COMPASSION
I HAVE WASTED TEN YEARS IN THIS DAMNATION
HELL FIRE TRAMP DEN OF OLD WOMEN OLD
HAGS NO YARMOUTH PEOPLE HERE. THE
OAKUM IS ROUGH AS IRON WOOL MY FINGERS
STIFF AND CALLOUSED BREAKFAST TO DINNER
BELL DINNER BELL TO SUPPER UNPICKING
SHORT USELESS THREADS AS STUBBY AS
PUPPIES TAILS IT WAS NOT ALWAYS THUS I WAS
APPEALING ONCE I WAS DEAR LITTLE LORINA,
SPELLING OUT C-A-T TO MOTHER WHO LOVED ME
A GREAT DEAL AND MRS DASHWOOD WHO
BOUGHT ME A MUSIC BOOK I STUDIED AT THE
BELGIAN SCHOOL I SHOWED PROMISE MY FINE
FINGERS FLOWED OVER THE IVORIES I HAD THE
ADMIRATION OF THE SCHOOLMISTRESS THE
VOICES GAROTTE ME ALL DAY UNTIL I UNWIND
THEM AND STITCH TEN YEARS NOW IN THIS
DAMNATION HELL FIRE TRAMP DEN